In the middle of the night..... at 2 o clock..... I sit in front of my system..... with my fingers lazily moving on the keyboard and start writing this..... May be there is something i ought to share... yet i dont know what.....
Kabhi Kabhi Zindagi mein sabh kuch paane kay bavajoot bhi kuch aadura sa lagti hai.....
Mera paas sabh kuch hai lakin..... I am more than happy and content with my life yet.....
Lovely parents:too lucky to be there kid.....
AB:to always guide me through tough times.....
Rocking friends:to liven the environment around me..... yet.....
In the middle of the night..... i wake up and search for something..... something very precious..... which ought to be mine..... which ought to be mine..... Hoping after hope that i can wake up someone and ask them to help me in searching..... yet.....
All alone when everybody else is fast asleep.....
i sit here hoping that there will be someone who will find my precious thing for me.....
My heart yearns for something and yet i dont know what it is.....
My mind thinks of every possible thing and yet it doesnot seem to find the correct answer.....
My eyes search every corner of the room and yet it fails to discover anything.....
My throat calls out for every one who can help me find it and yet there is no one to answer my call.....
Lagta hai ki kudha mujhse keh raha hai ki..... Meri Sabhse Keemti cheez..... jissa mein doond rahi hoon..... woh meri aakhon key bilkul samne hai..... lakin phir bhi mein pehchan nahi paa rahi hoon.....
All alone..... I search and search..... for what ought to be mine..... for what ought to be mine.....
And when all my energy is perished..... I collapse and feel helpless.....
I feel like crying..... crying.....
till my eyes are drained of water.....
till my throat is soar with pain.....
till my heart is tired of yearning.....
till my mind is tired of thinking..... yet.....
I am not the one to give up.....
I start my search again.....
All alone..... i search and search and search..... for what ought to be mine..... for what ought to be mine.....
All alone..... i sit here..... in the middle of the night..... hoping after hope to find..... what ought to be mine..... what ought to be mine.....
10 comments:
To me... All these extra-ordinary thoughts of yours describes that u r a person with very high imaginative, creative, thinking, dynamic, IQ and GK packed within you my dear friend..
And reading on your thoughts left me in thoughts for a while thinking whether i too search something all alone and never know wat i am searching for....
Hmmmm....
May be you shouldn wakeup at 2 in the morning and go into thoughts... he he he.. (kidding)
Anyways.. your thoughts are making me to think a lot and lot...
More comments later....
Prashanth....
hmmm.... may be.... may be I should not get up....and spoil my mind...
well.... anyways.... dont think too much and spoil your mind as well....
rock your life as usual....
take care...
keep visiting....
bye....
thinkin n wonderin is wat all do at some or the other point of time in life
thinkin abt wat to do, wat they want to do, whr to go
searchin 4 the aim, searchin for the right path
searchin for true HAPPINESS n CONTENT thts everlastin....but my friend nothin is everlastin....so the search never ends
and dont worry....u're not alone who keeps wonderin at night abt future....abt fate....abt destiny...abt wat to do next....wat u want next...
only difference is i don wake up....i jus don sleep
the day the search ends....u will attain the ENLIGHTENMENT...."NIRVANA"
Harsh...
Ya... This I accept... everybody will search/think at one or the other point of time.... the starting stages of believing in spirituality...
and yes... there are things which are everlasting(or may be we can make them everlasting)...
You say you dont sleep... thats mainly because you think/search as well... but... if you think that you need to sleep... that day... you will be able to sleep... peacefully.... all that matters is what we think....
I woke up... because than at that moment... my thoughts were more important than sleep...
so the priorities play a very important role in shaping one's life...
well... correct me if i am wrong... but that's my thinking....
hey... thanks for the comment...
keep visiting and keep sharing your views...
bye...
jyothi...
hi.. hmmm.. i kind of share the feeling you have expressed brilliantly in words... all there is to do is WAIT.. though its hard.. its the only thing we can do...WAIT for that thing which ought to be yours... if its yours.. you'll get it, no matter what... noone can keep it away from you or take it from you... but if you don't get it.. means it doesn't belong to you. Accept it. That's the way of life.
True Srini......
I accept with you that if something belongs to us... it comes to us on its own accord and if its not ours.... it will never come....
Thanks Srini for the comment...
Keep visiting...
bye....
jyothi
Stop searching forever, it is just next u.....
Very true is the sentence that says its just next to me...... because as I said in the article also..... its just beside me..... right in front of my eyes..... yet.... I am unable to identify it....
Well... Thanks a lot for the comment.... and I am very happy you took the pain to write......
keep visiting...
bye,
jyothi.
Hi jyothi,
After reading your thoughts, i felt as if its not at all extra ordinary. Its the same feeling all have esp. at this age. I guess u r rather emotiona kind of girl rather than being urself.
I liked the way u wrote but i feel its not the correct way of urs to express.
nways it was a good kind of entertainment as its very far from (your) personal thoughts.
Dont mind me writing like this but its just a personal thought.
Finally i want to conclude by saying, Stop searching and try to acheive :)
bye tak care
Sravani Garu,
If I know you I am sorry I didnot recognise you... First of all thank you for leaving your opinion...
Yes, I do realise that searching is not uncommon...
And anyone who know's me will definitely swear that I am not an emotional person... sensitive maybe... but not emotional... and no one can be themselves as much as I can... and I am proud to be what I am because that is what I want to be...
And I don't know what you mean by saying personal thoughts... But let me say you that I write what I feel...
If its a kind of entertainment for you... I am quite glad about it...
Lastly.... Thanks a lot for the advise... For now I am happy with what I have in life... Though still I could not figure out what I am searching for... Yet... I had made it a point to see to it that I achieve what I really want...
Thank you once again for everything...
regards,
Jyothi.
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